Here we go...first day of blogging. Up until now I've been jotting down my thoughts and heart ache in a journal whenever i get a moment to write. Thought I'd try a blog. Just doing this for me, to track my journey and force myself to be honest and transparent in the painful aftermath of Jenna's death.
Life, for me, seems to exist somewhere between the physical pain that comes with grief and the unwillingness to accept the fact that my precious baby girl is no longer here, with me. The everyday things I miss sharing with her. Longing to hear her voice, smell her skin, hold her little hands, paint her little nails. Her sweet voice. I would give anything to hear her laugh, to hear her tell me she loves me. to feel her hug me.
This morning I ate breakfast in the dining room with the chandelier on. I remember how Jenna loved to eat her meals in 'the princess dining room' with the beautiful chandelier all lit up. She was a true princess from the start and IS a true princess even now in the presence of her father the king.
Today, I'm reminded of Psalm 107:13 - I cry to you, Lord, in my trouble. Save me from my distress. God, please comfort my aching heart.
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